(If you haven’t yet, you need to read « childhood and past lives memories » first)
*I am not trying to explain transsexualism or gender-queerness as a whole; I am merely sharing my own experience and feelings about it.*
One of the memories that seems blocked is the feeling of having been a man; and more precisely a gay man. Yes, visions of past lives can be that clear… mostly when something is needed to be done about it apparently.
The feeling of being, partially, in the wrong body has been bugging me for a while and is now becoming stronger. In a way it’s serving my inspiration (I write straight and gay fictions) but it is becoming uncomfortable.
I talked with my mum about it several time before, she’s open minded, and recently she suggested that, maybe, it was due to her not letting me express those memories as a child and so « blocking » them. (Hence that previous explanation)
I have been working towards finding my inner balance between the masculine and the feminine in me -through meditation for one thing- but it’s not helped so far.
I don’t really know what to do: am I supposed to express this part of me -which I already do through writing- more visibly (through clothings…) or can I find a way to let those memories go back to the past where they belong and move on to be who I am now? And if that’s what I am supposed to do, who the hell am I anyway?
Why do simple…