I wrote the poem « Scared » on the 19th of December 2008.
It expresses partly how I feel due to my « pervasive development disorder-not over-specified », also known as being part of the « autism spectrum disorder ».
Although I have had this condition ever since birth – maybe due to lack of breathing the first 5 minutes of my life, leading to brain « damage »- I only found out I was « disabled » in 2005 after spending three days literally « out of myself » -following the swallowing of 7 calming pills which did nothing but make me uncontrollable.
I received the final diagnosis in June 2010, 5 years after starting to work on getting the right treatment, diagnosis and therapy.
Although I am recognised as disabled I tried to work, every time failing due to stress. I have now my own little internet business and I write -for my own enjoyment and maybe soon for other’s.