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La vie de ma meute… My pack's life…


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Stop. Twitter break.

(I know you got the allusion…)

So, I lost it again on twitter today.

On one side, my friend was telling me about his worries concerning me going to a seminar held by Mickaël Roads.
The thing is, I know he’s worried, but telling me how I’m being naive and lied to and wasting money because I believe this seminar can help me feel good can get annoying.
Especially when I feel he’s trying to convince me to « give up my believes » – I have dangerous believes: I believe there is more to the world than we can see. Yea, I might preach to people – I’ve never done it, but maybe – and I might die or kill for it – erm, no, never. (I am making it sound worse and sillier, you know that, it’s a blog article)

On the other side, someone was talking about cisgendered and transgendered people and having their periods. I had the stupidity to ask « can we then use « biological sex » instead of genders? » – I was talking about periods, I have that stupid notion that it’s females – biological sex – that have them, regardless of their genders.
You see, I consider myself a « genderqueer female ». I have no effing idea what genders are, I don’t recognise myself in the usual « woman » representation, but I do know that I can feel « feminine » or « masculine », it fluctuates.
(I tend to switch to « boy mode » around girls I like, spread legs included, but that’s definitely not the only time)
I understand there are biological sexes and genders, that people can be non-binary – I am – but I never studied everything about it.
I am willing to learn, though, but twitter isn’t the right place – try explaining this in 140 characters.
I got told to « go get fucked with [my] biological sex ».

I lost it.
I told twitter I was done with it and told it to « do a fucking survival manual for people willing to learn about cis/trans and sex/gender. I WANT TO UNDERSTAND! »
A nice person on twitter explained to me, kuddos to them for doing it and on such a format. If you read this, know you rock.

So, now I’m stuck: facebook drives me nuts with its new format – and we don’t chat on there anyway ; I don’t want to go back on twitter – I feel dumb, stupid, and like I took a door in my face ; that leaves me with dear old emails and skype to stay in touch with people.

I spend time on instagram too, looking at « boho » pictures …

I’ll still check mentions and DMs and I will go over to Facebook every so often. But I think it’ll do me good to stay away from all this for a while. (There goes my social life…)
Friends, you have my email – or you can ask for it.


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« Why is it not cool to call an autistic person “high functioning?” »

Original article on « that’s not what jesus is for ».

« there is no meaningful difference between Asperger’s and what’s known now as “classic autism.” »

Can we stop the segregation, now that’s been said !?! Yea, I’m « just » PDD-NOS, not asperger’s, so no one ever wants to know how I live or function, because, no, I’m not asperger’s. Can we just stop this?

« Whether or not an autistic person can communicate, go to college, live in their community, have friends, etc etc etc, has more to do with the people around them and how they are treated than anything else. »

There’s a lot of diversity in autism and autistic people. Some autistic people have savant skills. Most of us do not. Some autistic people don’t speak orally, but use their hands or a VOCA instead. The vast majority of us can speak, to some degree, although it’s by definition trickier for us. Over 90% of autistic people have symptoms of an anxiety disorder, depression, or PTSD due to living in a social environment that is often actively hostile. Over 90% of autistic people are unemployed, due to educational neglect, poverty, lack of supports, social issues, straight-up discrimination, or a million other reasons having nothing to do with actual ability. Different autistic people have different sensory and motor issues, different obsessions, and different difficulties in our day-to-day life, but, by definition, we all have all of these things.

You know what? It feels good to read this because it reassures me. I don’t work and it’s ok, it’s not because I don’t try hard enough to find « a job compatible with autism ».
Sometimes I think « but there are autistic people who work! » Yes, there are, they were lucky to find that job but it’s still ok I didn’t find one.
Yes, I still have times when I feel bad about being *who I am* but I’m learning on accepting and loving myself just the way I am. It takes a while, though, we’re not always told that we can just love ourselves the way we are.
I don’t know if cats would rather be dogs because it’s more normal…


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I haven’t disapeared

Or fallen off the face of the Earth, or been blown away by the strong winds.

I had *that* great idea, the one you think will be so great, but before that, that takes for ever to do.
I’ve decided that I was done playing in the small playground of blogs and that I wanted a website – still with wordpress, but self-hosted.
That was such a great idea when it was still in my head…
A couple of weeks later, not so much.

Granted, I disappeared before that, Bear, having broken his shoulder, was at home so we ended up doing things together and I tried to take breaks from the pc.
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Le chlore, l’autisme et les diurétiques

J’ai à nouveau posté sur les VI!

Les Vendredis Intellos

Cela fait quelques temps que je n’avais publié ici mais Mme Déjanté m’a demandé de commenter la dernière actualité – plus très récente – des recherches sur l’autisme.
La plus notable est la découverte par le professeur Ben Ari du lien entre le chlore présent dans le cerveau et des troubles dont l’autisme.
[Voici le lien vers l’étude en anglais et vers un article journalistique en français]

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